Spontaneous Solo Bali Trip
Why Solo?
Why did I choose to travel alone to Bali?
As someone who has low-risk tolerance, is scared of the unknown and uncertainty, over-thinker, has analysis paralysis, and turned into a planner because she thought control was the answer - for the first time - I felt like letting go and surrendering made more sense than repeat my old habits - I just felt this time needs to be different.
Traveling solo was an amazing opportunity for me to treat myself and find closure on my inner child healing journey. I fear that if I don't take any risks, I'll never be able to pursue that dream. It’s also a way for my body to purge and reset itself.
I’ve always been curious about what the lives of digital nomads look like. In a way, I came to Bali because I was curious to see if this visualized imagination of mine was just a dream on the Pinterest board or if it really was something I could envision myself doing.
Of course, traveling solo made me realize how it felt to be far from Ted. Being in a relationship for seven years is a possibility for growth and discovery. You either grow together or grow apart; it’s hard to have similar goals and dreams all the way through. I probably followed his vision, but for the most part, I realized I also had a vision that was my own.
Hence, I went on that trip to have more clarity, not just for us but especially for myself. On that trip, I learned that I can do everything by myself, even if I’m sick or when I’m alone. I’ve always seen us as a unit, but with his strong sense of individuality and self, it has inspired me to build that for myself externally as well.
“I went there to honor myself and fulfill my bucket list of solo traveling and exploring what it means to be a digital nomad to many different people.”
Why Bali?
Maybe you’ve also seen a lot of people around the world choose a place like Bali. I also had that thought before traveling there.
Why did I choose Bali of all the places?
What’s so special about this place?
I knew I wanted to go on a solo trip, but I didn't know where to start. I was tossing over whether to go to Europe or Asia. I was following a few other coaches who spent some time in Bali, so I looked into it and realized Bali was the place for spiritual awakenings, and that’s exactly where I needed to be.
Coincidentally, Nicole commented on one of my photos in Santorini, which prompted me to check out her page, and I realized everything she was doing was something I’ve always wanted to do. Live by design, move with the flow, and build businesses around that. I also noticed she was in Bali at that time, and she was holding a women's circle. I was curious to see if I could go and if it was open to non-locals.
I remember I had two windows open: Jetstar tickets to Bali and a free ticket to the Women's Circle Day event! I was overthinking everything, but by the time the flights timed out and I thought,
"You know what? Let me take a break, have some dinner, talk with Ted, and then make an aligned decision.".
Five hours later, Ted pushed me to buy the tickets and then encouraged me. Only then can I start the process of trusting my intuition, going with the flow, and knowing I will figure out the next step as long as I keep going. I just needed to book that ticket, and I’ll figure out accommodation, where I’ll stay, and what I'll do. Whatever it is, I’ll just go for it.
“I believe that we have the power to overcome our past traumas and embrace a more optimistic mindset. I’m trying to reprogram myself to have more confidence in my abilities rather than feeling constrained by the need for perfection. I am learning to let things unfold naturally without excessive planning, which brings a sense of freedom and positive energy. Let’s embrace spontaneity and follow wherever this life leads us!”
B A L I
E X P E R I E N C E
Meeting New People | Unexpected Friendship
Meeting Nicole ➺ Without getting in touch with Nicole, I wouldn't have taken the leap of faith and signed up to go. Going to a new country alone without any connections can be scary.
On my very first day in Bali, I was fortunate enough to become acquainted with a wonderful group of young women. Being open and actively participating in life together turned out to be a lot of fun for us. I had a fun night and went to karaoke with them, and I was just so grateful to have actually met all these amazing women who felt empowered to step into their power and make moves.
I've always had a hard time putting myself out there and making new friends because I always felt like I didn't have much to share. When I finally gave myself permission to be completely open, I was amazed at the connections I could build. And when I met all of these girls, I thought that we were really not alone. It’s so easy to work and collaborate with them, as it's the norm to pull out your camera, and it’s not weird. Your environment really affects your flow.
On top of that, I was able to overcome my anxiety by meeting new people and having small talks that turned into a really good and long conversation.
The idea of making female friendships scarred me in the past because I’ve just been burned so many times when I was led to believe that someone was a friend, only to find out that they were spreading rumors and plotting against me behind my back.
I've become less open to making new friends and sharing who I am. Also, low-maintenance friendships when connecting with people all around the world shift my perspectives on connections. I have less attachment to them and trust that if we do connect deeply, we will know that no matter how much time has passed, we will just pick up where we left off. There's mutual understanding. These are the relationships I adore.
“I’ve found that the end of a friendship hurts more than the end of a romantic relationship.”
In Bali, I had a life-changing chance to experience the power of community, and it truly left a lasting impact on me. The people I had the privilege of meeting were absolutely amazing and taught me so much. The sisterhood that we were able to build in just 24 hours! These women have a great capacity to come together and provide great support for each other. It was the best feeling.
My Days in Canggu | Women's Circle | Friendships | Connection | Community
I only booked 2 days in Canggu when I first booked my flights, and the rest went with the flow. I knew I wanted to be in Ubud but had no idea how long or where. I ended up being there for a week and went back to Canggu for another three days.
During my days in Canggu, I was able to experience things that I hadn't been able to do in my life. I just learned to live out my best life, and it feels so liberating to have no plans. Along with that, staying in new places offers thrilling possibilities to explore and indulge in unfamiliar encounters.
Imagine enjoying delicious food that you've never tasted before or finally setting foot in breathtaking locations that were once only imaged on a screen.
In my Surrender Experiment & Rebirth
I am excited to have learned about reconditioning my values and beliefs and creating new stories and new realities! As I was able to experience all of these new things at that moment, I felt that I was on the right path toward living and manifesting my dream life little by little. I learned to say yes more, trusting that good things come when I let go of expectations and am just open to receiving. I’m really embodying what that means as I discover and observe myself deeper. I openly followed my intuition, trusting myself completely and going with the flow of things.
My Days in Ubud | Alone but not Lonely | Spiritual Day Tour | Healing | Purification Ceremony | Rebirth
The contrast from Canggu to Ubud was vast. Although I made new friends in Canggu, some left, and I left alone to Ubud into the unknown. In a way, I developed less attachment to people and had a deep knowledge that the connections I made would continue to grow without being together. Booking the accommodation, I stayed in for initially 3 days, which was extended to 4 because I was sick.
I kicked off my day in Ubud by enjoying some peaceful alone time, savoring a refreshing coconut, witnessing the breathtaking sunrise, and truly embracing the moment. One positive thing after another, I trust the universe has my back. I am currently surprised by the endless possibilities the world has to offer when we embrace trust and let go.
On my first day in Ubud, I had an amazing and enlightening spiritual day tour in Puri Pandawa. On that tour, you'll get to experience the incredible power of Chakra Energy, discover fascinating knowledge through Palm Reading, and receive clarity and a Coloring Mandala. It was a truly uplifting and transformative journey that will leave you feeling refreshed and fulfilled. I felt so validated and seen.
With that, I have a lot in mind. Talk about rebirth.
“My normal life has ended at 27.”
“I am meant to be my own boss.”
“My spiritual line is my destiny.”
Thoughts came floating into my mind. My element is water. I need to go with the flow. When I connect with myself, I will attract what I need. I am multi-passionate and will need multiple sources of income. I can’t follow my husband for success; I need to be the leader and find my own path.
EMOTIONAL PURGE
My water ceremony / cleansing ceremony experience was too emotional. Surrendering can’t be more symbolic than this. I’ve always had a fear of water since I was a child because I was almost swept away once in the ocean.
That day, I had to dunk my head in the strong flow of the waterfall, say my prayers, and express my gratitude, and all the emotions just came out so healing to release. I feel like I’m doing my rebirth ceremony in this magical place. It was so hard but beautiful. I feel all the flow and resistance just released from my body.
It was powerful. I just cried the whole time and repeated;
"I am strong, I am powerful, I am the creator of my reality.”
PHYSICAL PURGE
Jamu Sehati, Ubud
I was sick in Ubud.
Maybe from all the moving around and different environments.
I didn't have a Bali belly or anything. It felt like I had a fever.
I had to learn to be alone while sick. It was initially hard but empowering because I never felt alone.
The staff at Nayaka Living, Ubud was checking up on me physically and online to see if I needed anything.
The hospitality in Bali was just above and beyond.
All these small moments of connections just filled my heart with joy.
S P I R I T U A L P A R E N T S
Tamara and Gede ➺ I felt like they were spiritual parents, which I never had. When we first met, I intuitively felt a connection. They were so nurturing, loving, and caring.
Inner Child Healing
Gede sat in on each of our readings from different healers to translate and interpret anything that we couldn't make sense of. His intuitive abilities were always on point. Some words he said that struck a cord that I didn't realize when I started pouring my eyes out were,
“ You can do anything you want, just go for it, the universe supports you and
everyone here believes in you”
The reason I felt such a strong emotional release was because these were the exact words I never got from a male figure as a child. I didn't realize how profound these words were. I just felt the emotions, and I found a lot of closure and release from all the inner child healing I was doing last year.
Tamara shared her personal journey of not being able to have children and how she had to grieve and let that go. However, what was impactful and inspiring is that she's able to share her gifts of healing with so many people around the world, not just her family. That was so profound for me and debunked any limiting beliefs around the fear of not having kids. It just eased my mind.
N O M A D I C W O M E N
On my 7th day in Bali, I met up with Mila, who connected me with a nomadic family of 5 currently in Bali. That day, the parents were having a me time while the children were currently in a world school, and they traveled around every couple of months, which aligned with what the kids were passionate about. It really opened my eyes to what was possible.
We met up with Julie, who’s from London, and we spent the whole day together and connected so deeply. themes ranging from integrating our shadow selves, masculinity, and femininity within ourselves and with our partners, father wounds, business dreams and goals, sensuality, world schooling, nomadic family dynamics between partner and kids, and all types of healing.
Children & Travel
When I was at the chakra healer with the other women, I was sharing my concerns about having children and traveling. I wanted to try living the nomadic lifestyle, but I never took any risks and kept overthinking the whole process of my biological timing. Ironically, the healer said I wouldn't be able to have children if I was stressed and overthinking. I need to meditate and do yoga to balance out my energy.
Somatic Therapy
The healer I met at my favorite vegan cafe, Sayuri Healing Food in Ubud, shared a table and started a connection. I was open to exploring and doing any type of healing in Bali, and it manifested through meeting different types of people.
Spiritual Seekers
Through several healing practices, from yoga and meditation to sound healing, energy healing, palm reading, somatic healing, massage, and sound healing, I've done almost everything. Bali is a very spiritually connected place that awakens so many levels of subconscious conditioning. I've been spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically challenged here. I've found new spaces within me that I didn't know I had.
My old self was conditioned to never really know how to ask for my needs to be met. Using my voice has always been a constant struggle. Sometimes, I don’t even know if it’s my own feelings or if it’s someone else's emotional projections on me. In a way, this may be me doing the final purge within my body to allow my conscious mind to fully express itself without holding back. In regards to intimacy, maybe my body was still holding old subconscious beliefs, fearing true intimacy—fear of being seen or abandonment.
H O M E
It may take some time, but I'm confident that I'll eventually settle back into my routines. And when I do, I'll embrace the opportunity to create an even better version of my previous ways of living—the version I was before I left. An exciting journey lies ahead as I embark on brainstorming, designing, and integrating this amazing new me! I'm confident that I will eventually adjust, and I'm perfectly fine with that. No rush, but just trust that I’ll find my way.
My experiences in Bali are an open book to everyone, and I am willing to carry it wherever I go, letting other people see through me. What I was before, what I’ve done, and especially what I have become There’s so much more to uncover.
That time, when I was on my way home to Sydney, I knew that when I returned home, everything and everyone would be the same, but I wasn't. I’ve gone through so many trials spiritually, emotionally, mentally, and physically, and I feel like I’m a different person.
To others, on the surface, it may look like a nice holiday. and it was, but there's an energetic shift in my soul, like someone who has gone through a whole rebirth that others won’t be able to understand or relate to.
And that is ok; this will probably be my new test to see how grounded I am within myself despite the environment.
Now that I'm finally back home, I feel grateful for being given the chance to have experienced a different way of life in a place where I could focus on healing and personal growth. I'm empowering people to embrace their true selves through my embodiment journey.
I am excited to inspire others through my platforms to "book a ticket," "fly where you want," and "go for it!" Taking risks can lead to a more contented life, and it's never too late to pursue what you've always wanted.
I N T E G R A T I O N
My experience in Bali has been absolutely unforgettable and filled with so many emotions. Traveling alone and experiencing the nomad life I always wanted to have has been an exciting and refreshing change from my life before.
I fondly recall sitting at my corporate office. I was at my desk, thinking to myself, “this can’t be”.
The world has endless possibilities waiting to be explored, and I'm here, surrounded by four walls,
To do what exactly?
What’s the meaning of life?
Is this how I want to spend the rest of my life?
Is this really it?
Self-discovery, find healing, and be willing to surrender. Those are some of the incredible things I've learned about myself during my solo trip to Bali. I had the privilege to meet amazing people and live the life I'd always pictured.
Don’t get me wrong, I was grateful, and I am still grateful, but I knew I was in a place where I would never be really happy forever, and I would never be myself if I just let myself be in that situation. I knew I had to take the risk and leave that comfortable life of mine.
I know I am still in the process of discovering myself. I don’t have all the answers right now, but intuitively, I know this was not just a dream but a reality I’ve lived 100 times in my mind, and now I’m just embodying it. Through meeting locals and nomads, it has allowed me to have a deep understanding that, yes, my values of freedom, independence, and authenticity are shared here in this place. It is the norms and the environment that really shape you.
“If you want to go fast, you go alone. If you want to go far, you go together. I don’t know what my future path will look like, but I have a new depth and understanding of my existence in this world. I’m strong and powerful on my own, but I definitely need the right people in my corner to get me where I want to go.”
My surrender experiment doesn’t end in Bali, because it continues here in Sydney.
I’m now currently taking steps to move to Bali 2024, stay updated on my journey!
